Here it is another start of another year! I pray the Lord that this year will be a turn around year for us. I am not sure we can live through another year like 2008! The disappointments and heartache's were almost too much to bear.
The loss of income, home and much more, I did not know what to do and where to turn as this is the first time in my life that I have lost everything, then the fact that I depended to much on my children to guide me through this time of worry, which was and is a burden to them was not fair to them. I do not want to be a burden, I just want to be a Mom!
I love all my children with my whole heart and want what is best for them all. It is time now for me to let them fly on their own and for me to move on and find whatever it is I need! I do not mean to forget about them, that I could never do, I just need to let them live their lives, like I did when I left home. (Sink or swim that is what I must do and they must do) I always was there for my mother and father, and they were always there for me, but we lived separate lives and viewed things in different ways. I guess I just want to be in the middle and be included in every way with them and when I am not then I get my feelings hurt. So I need to find other things to occupy my life and mind. I know they will always be within reach if I need them and I will always be in reach if they need me, BUT, Mom it is time to let go! It is with a heavy heart that I have made this decision and I know that I have to find a Happy Place in my own mind so I do not go crazy!
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