Christmas has come and gone, I can truly say that if I have to live through another Christmas like this one, I hope God takes me home first! The heartache and pain is to much for me to handle.
My children have greatly upset me this year and I hope that they never have to feel the feelings that I have had the past couple of weeks. But if they ever do I hope they remember that once there was a mom that cared for them greatly and love them too much and that they treated her like she was not there. Of course since I was hurting so much, it was hard to act like I was OK. So that might be part of the problem!
Well enough of the feel sorry for yourself stuff.
I have been praying that 2009 will be our turn around year and that we can find a way to be happy again. The past couple of years have not been good to us. We listened to people that gave us advise and were at the time trying to help, but it just cost us our home and money and our dignity. We are as low as we have ever been, with no decent transportation and no place to live and no money to rent a place, so we will soon be out on the street, with hundreds of others that took the wrong advise and turn in the road. But, I know that somehow we will pull ourselves out of this pit.
